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it’s amazing how i find out new information about my boyfriend’s lies and yet i’m still with him.

i do not know how i can keep up and cope this.

Being in relationship….

You know what sucks is when your boyfriend picks up girls at the club while you’re away and telling them that we broke up, doesn’t realize that girl happens to be my friend. Then after that, he calls and tells me that he wants space yet he keeps texting and calling me. I’m devastated and heartbroken, I don’t know what I’m feeling because each and everyday I find out something. The following day he calls and says he wants to forget about the whole break then goes out that night telling me he’ll call me after he grabs dinner with friends and 5 hours later no phone call. how am I suppose to react or to think ? If he wants to be single I want him to tell me not through my friends. This is not the first time I have caught him. I feel like he’s taking advantage of the whole situation because I’m 4 states away from him and I can’t do anything about but play with my emotions.
The past few days I have done nothing but cry my eyes out and pretending I’m well . During our break he texts me saying “have faith, be strong, You are the best thing ever happened to me” … I don’t know what to think because all my faith has been drained out from the unfaithful things he has done to me and i have done nothing but love him with all my heart. Never in my life I feel like this constant depression and heartache. I love him but I don’t want to leave him yet part of me is tired and just want peace. I know this happens to a lot of relationship but a lot of relationship don’t give too many second chances and beat themselves up. I’m tired, emotionally drained, and confuse. I just don’t know what to do.